Don't want to go

Although I enjoy business travel - getting out of the office routine, seeing new places and people, and eating as well as possible - the day or so before a trip, I always dread leaving. The logistics of moving myself about the earth and saying even a temporary goodbye to my person were daunting enough to make me clingy, teary, and snappish (such a charmer!). That was before, and now it's at least an order of magnitude worse. Last time (the first time!) I felt guilty but 3 adults per one cranky baby is a pretty great ratio for coverage and breaks. This time, leaving the boys alone…eek! I'm not afraid - I actually think they will be fine, if somewhat tired of each other by the time I return - but I am so sad to leave them behind and on their own. It just doesn't feel...proper :(